if home is where the heart is then you're my home.
Every time I see you smile, I feel myself burn up. Whenever you speak to me, I’m thrown into a nervous wreck and I suddenly get tachycardia. When I hear your voice, I can’t breathe, the butterflies eat me alive. Your face? The sight alone makes me melt. Every time I think of you my heart feels so light in my chest, it’s floating but you when you leave, it feels so heavy, my eyes can’t take it. Every night I pray, I pray for you before myself. You are my gift from god. I lay awake at night thinking of you, wondering when I’ll see you. I feel so helpless sometimes. Anything you want, I’ll give it you, my love. When you’re not doing well, inside, I can’t handle it- the thought of you, hurting, leaves me broken. When I think of you possibly being gone, it feels like a part of me is dying. It doesn’t matter to me if you gain weight. I don't care if you lose your hair. If something were to happen to you, don't worry I'll take care of you. Sometimes when I feel lost, I think of you and it’s like I suddenly find my direction. I want you close. I want you always. I want you forever.
I am in love. I finally, know what it means to love, and be loved.
Not much else to say than, I hate my job. Fuck this job, man. My boss is nice and all but, I can't handle the dumb as fuck patients I have to deal with everyday. It's so hard to not jump over my desk and beat the shit out of some of these chumps. GR!
Dear Lonely feeling,
You have been my only companion in this life. No matter who I’m with, where I am or what I’m doing, you’ve always found a way to be there with me. Every time I feel like I’m finally running away from you, you always manage to catch up to me. I can always count on your presence, you’re my second shadow.